Changes
We had a great Thanksgiving filled with tons of carbs and sweet treats! Lily really enjoyed her sweet potatoes! She’s getting so big. She can sit up on her own now. We just sit behind her in case she tumbles over, but for the most part she can do it on her own! She is trying so hard to talk to us. She almost says hi (she has the h sound down), and when we say I love you she makes a sound for each word. It pretty much sounds like uh uh uh, but she’s trying!
Kevin had the week before Thanksgiving off and we just hung around the house enjoying some time together and enjoying the time with Lily. We have so much to be thankful this year! God has blessed us every day! It’s been an amazing year filled with lots of blessings and changes.
Their are a few upcoming changes for the Dooley’s…
Since God blessed us with our new house, He immediately showed us that their was a need for Kevin’s parents to move in with us. Kevin’s dad’s health is declining and his mom basically has to spend all day taking care of him. We all understand that this will be hard, but it’s necessary and we want to have his parents spend as much time as possible together. Kevin’s mom has also offered to take care of Lily during the day which brings me to our next change.
I have to go back to work. I don’t want to do this at all. I’m struggling with it and every time I think about it I’m close to tears. I hate the thought of leaving my little Lily. I understand how very lucky I have been to be able to stay home with her for the first 5 months and I am extremely grateful for this time, but I want more. I don’t know if this is selfish or not, but it’s been my hearts desire since the first day I knew I was pregnant with her to stay at home. I know grandma will do a great job, but I want all the firsts, and I want to experience the every day stuff. I want to be the one who handles the naps, feedings, diapers, play time, teaching. My biggest fear is that Lily will want grandma more than me. That she will get used to her so much that she will want grandma to comfort, play with and put her to bed, and not me. I guess this is foolish, but it is a very real fear that I have. I know I have to work, and just get over what I’m feeling, and at this point we can’t make it without me going back, but I wish their was another way.
Hey there Ann. I understand your concerns, and have seen them so many times in moms bringing their children to me for care. I just want to reassure you. Lily will love Gramma a ton. She will love having her in her life everyday. But Gramma will never be Mom. She will never be able to take your place in Lily’s heart or life. No matter how much time Lily spends with anyone else – it’s just not possible. You will always be the one she wants when things are difficult or scary or wonderful. That’s just the way it is with moms. Love you lots!